I am so, so loving the study of Finding I AM How Jesus Fully Satisfies The Cry of Your Heart by Lysa Terkeurst.
This is my week 1 thoughts. We are now in week 2. It seems every study I am going to blog so I don’t have so much to keep up with like all those notebooks sitting around, but this sweet, beautiful life gets in the way, and I get behind and I quit. This study is so good I want to hold on to these nuggets of truth for the next few weeks.
Do you have some kind of desperate cry – something that you’ve prayed and prayed about and longed for over many years – something that keeps you up at night? I think most of us have, or at least I have had those times just laying there and finally getting out of bed, and before I know it morning has arrived with no sleep.
Last week as I was starting this post it was only day 3 of the study, but between the videos of Lysa teaching in Israel, the conference call, and the Proverbs 31 Blog well I am full, and I have learned so much. You can find the first week’s chapters right here for free. Read them and see what I am talking about. Go to the blog to capture the free videos available only for about a month of Lysa in Israel. Yes, it’s the next best thing to being there.
Week 1 – I AM The Bread of Life
Lysa’s teaching videos share so much and are free only during this study. One of the things I learned from this first one was that “first came His name, and then His promises.” His name is the most important. She shared the first place in scripture where His name was used in Exodus 3:14 where He calls himself “I AM who I AM”.
I love how Lysa shared how He doesn’t just want to be “what we need, but all we want.”
I want MORE – I want Him to be all I WANT, but I’m not there yet, but He is never finished with us as long as we are in the Word and on our knees. Like Lysa, I have side stepped God’s opportunities with my lists of excuses.
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Day 1 – Bios and Zoe Life
I learned about two words used for life in the Bible. Lysa shared the words, bios and zoe. I’ve never heard either of them. I’m sure my husband has. Here is what she shared in the book about the meanings of these words.
- Bios – “breath in your lungs or physical life”.
- Zoe – “possess with vitality looking to the fullness of life.”
Zoe is used 125 times and bios 10 times in the Bible. I think that’s because He wants us to have more than breath in our lungs. He wants us to experience Him – not things, not others. He wants us to experience the fullness that only He can provide. But, Lysa also reminded us that we need both – a little bios and a whole lot of zoe.
We were reminded about the broken world we live in. I don’t enjoy watching the news anymore, but we do. I am not sure our world is as bad as the news would want us to believe.
Are there things you have been praying about a very long time? I’m raising my hand because I have several. We were reminded that those hurts, those aches are not the source of our satisfaction, and even if they were solved today, Satan is always lurking to hit us with another thing. Even The Bread of Life was tempted.
Day 2 – Feeding The 5,000
I call this my thankfulness chapter. Yes, yes I am so thankful most of the time, but read on.
We spent some time in John 6 and reading back over the feeding of the 5,000, where Jesus performed the miracle of taking 5 loaves of bread and 2 fish and fed 5,000 people. This was also where His first “I AM” statement is found in the Bible.
What I learned this day was about how to really pray about thankfulness and more about the Passover and that it was a springtime festival. I already knew that the Israelites celebrated their escape from bondage. Lysa reminded us not to miss the point of God’s provision of manna (nourishment – food) from heaven during their wandering.
Jesus asked Philip and Andrew where they were going to buy bread to feed all the people. They thought it was a hopeless situation, but Jesus performed a miracle after He gave thanks to God who causes bread to come forth.
That spoke to me as Lysa shared how a simple blessing opened up this miracle. How differently I should be praying. I thank the Lord as I enter into prayer, but I need to pray more like Jesus did that day. He is the Lord that causes miracles and oh He has so many times in my life. We were asked to share how God has shown up in our lives in impossible situations. I wrote down:
- The miracles of my children and grandchildren.
- The miracle He has performed on Colt.
- The miracle of 46 wonderful years of marriage, and the man I know He gave me.
This day was also a little lesson on humility. We all need that, don’t we? I love that word. It was our word of the year with Proverbs 31 studies in 2016. Lysa reminded us that “the hushing of humility will be the rushing in of pride.” The disciples had been doing ministry successful and Lysa said, “would they still serve Jesus in the quiet places that weren’t so glamorous”?
Those were words to prick a heart. Is our service about pleasing Him or serving our egos?
We took a look at Mark and saw all the things that disciples were telling Jesus about all they had done and taught. They were telling Jesus to send the people away to surrounding areas to buy themselves food.
And then we visited Jesus walking on the water. This is an old story I’ve heard so, so many times, but this time I heard and saw how the disciples didn’t know Him. They didn’t know who was walking on the water. This truth pricked my heart once again to realize how I have MISSED Him so many times with my busyness. He was right there, He is right there waiting on us to fellowship with Him, to see Him, to know Him.
Right after that event, our Lord revealed himself to the disciples as the Bread of Life. Right after reading that story again He’s revealed to me the bread I need each and every day.
Day 3 – Bread
Bread was first mentioned in Genesis. After the sin of Adam and Eve, bread became a part of the consequences. At this point it would be by the sweat of their brows that they were able to get food.
Lysa went deeper and shares with us how bread was a staple and how hard it was to have bread. The Israelites had to gather the grain, sift and clean it, ground it into flour and then knead it into cakes to bake. Can you imagine? We have it so simple today. I crave bread. It’s a staple especially to my man, but lately I’ve been trying to be a little gluten and sugar-free.
After the end of their 400 years of slavery they journeyed for a very long time, and well they began to panic because they had no grain. They grumbled and complained rather than cry out to God. God did hear their grumbling and He graciously rained down manna. God provides! He provided for the Israelites and He provides for you and me. Lysa said that this helps her to “lift my eyes when my heart aches over my not-yet-answered prayer. Looking at His faithfulness to provide helps me see if He did it before, He will do it again.”
There is so much more in this day’s reading – too much to share and I cannot really give justice to how beautiful this book is but I have to share one more thing that Lysa shared so as not to forget, and to be able to come back here and be blessed:
“We’ve only just scratched the surface of the fascinating references to the word bread in the Bible, but this will be our last exercise on the subject today. Jesus was born in Bethlehem. The word Bethlehem means, “house of bread.” Don’t lose the significance here: The house of bread was where the Bread of life was born. God knew Jesus would be the Bread of life, and He chose for Him to be born in the city bearing that same name.
Day 4 – The Bread of Life Walks On Water
Lysa takes us back to John 6 and walking on the water. She reminds us that before Jesus “said any I AM statements He first performed five miracles.” On day 4 we studied the fifth miracle.
Remember some of the disciples were fishermen. My son and husband love to fish so I can really associate with these guys, and yes my son would love to do it for a living. If you remember the disciples were fishing when a big storm came. The winds were rough. Don’t you get afraid when the winds rise and the weather is on talking about 70 mph winds? I can’t imagine being out there on a boat. It’s scary here in the house in those storms. Jesus had left long before that after feeding the 5,000. Well here comes Jesus walking on the water and He climbed into the boat.
“He became the answer to their need.”
He climbed into the boat and Lysa reminded us in verse 21 which states that at once they got to the other side.
She asks us why we are following Jesus. Ponder on that a moment. Why are you following Jesus? She asked, “is it so that I can get something from Him? Am I like the crowds who simply want their bellies filled? Or am I coming to Him because He is Bread to me? There is a difference in coming to Jesus for bread and because He is Bread.”
Day 5 – Optional
Day 5 was an optional lesson where we were to read John 1-4 and record thoughts, prayer, or things to remember from that reading. Here are a few I wrote down:
In Him is life
In Him is light.
He made all things.
The Word is flesh, is God.
Through Him all might believe.
Those who believe in His name have the right to be called children of God.
He is glorious.
He gives grace.
He has never been seen.
He changed water into wine.
He stopped buying and selling the house of God.
He gave his only begotten son for the world
Video 2 Notes
Lysa takes us to Capernaum. I didn’t know it was not mentioned in the old testament, nor that it means city of comfort. Jesus was known as the Comforter.
I learned the Sea of Galilee is not salt, but more of a fresh water lake, and that Jesus traveled about 85 miles south of Capernaum and it would have taken Him four days.
Capernaum is where He revealed His first I AM statement in John 6:35 – I AM the Bread of Life.
Lysa said if the sounds of millstones were not heard grinding wheat it would have meant no more bread and desolation.
Oh sweet sisters as I heard her say that “when we no longer hear that grinding, that daily bread, we NEED Him everyday. Are you hearing that grinding today? Are you seeking that daily bread?
I love the Proverbs 31 OBS Conference Calls. They are available here.
These are a few of the things I want to remember:
- Come to Him with my hunger
- Believe in Him – bring Him my thirst.
- Align with Him – bring my desires
Seek means to crave
If I am thirsty, if I am hungry .
Sometimes that secret sorrow causes our greatest faith.
A point to ponder Lysa shared was “God is everything we need. But is He everything we want?”